This song page is still in progress
This song is still in progress, can’t say much yet. I’m recording the vocals and will send the instrumental to the producer soon!
However while you’re waiting, enjoy the lyrics ;)
I was typing and got carried away so now you have the story behind the song and lyric breakdown as well!
About Butterflies
Origin Story
From time to time I do songwriting exercises, where I take a beat online and try to write to that… To train a creative muscle so to speak…
I like to share every part of my process with you, so I recorded this and posted it to my Instagram.
It wasn’t a final product, it wasn’t even a draft… the purpose wasn’t for it to be good.
It went semi-viral and got 19K views and daily hate and eventually I deleted it. From “your voice makes me want to vomit” to “I’m killing myself because of you” and “fetal alcohol syndrome or downs?”.
I didn’t understand that type of behavior cause when I see something I don’t like, I just scroll to the next thing… I don’t need to take time out of my day to make sure the person hears my opinion and hopefully feels bad about what they’re doing and eventually who they are.
I made another song trying to prove my vocal abilities “they say that I can’t sing” and got extra hate.
I tried to look at it with empathy and through “have I ever done something like this and why” and the answer was yes… I have posted mean comments and it meant I was in a place where I felt out of allignment, lacking, slacking. Music gives me purpose. When I’m not actively persuing that, I feel like I’m floating through life and to then see anyone who has the balls to put themselves out there or stand for something creates friction within me. However, when I’m actively working on myself and my music, I don’t have time for that type of behavior. I don’t feel the urge to put others down rather as to lift them up. Confident people, people who are actively persuing their goals and working on themselves, succesful people will hardly ever spend time tearing others down. It’s always the losers, the low lifes, the stagnant.
The Workshop
I took a songwriting workshop for fun and that’s where I wrote Butterflies. In the first session, they asked us to pick any word and make a mindmap with it. This gave me a solid foundation to start creating.
Within half an hour I had the verse, pre and chorus and part of the second verse. The situation was bothering me so much and I just tried to understand it. So it naturally flew out.
I am beyond proud of this song, it explains hatred and trolling perfectly.
It’s like a mantra, a little reminder “maggots won’t turn into butterflies”. Not everyone is destined to evolve. Some are meant to stagnate.
Obviously I have to learn to deal with this cause I can’t change their behavior but I can change how it affects me, the impact they do or don’t have on me, etc.
If you don’t ever do anything useful, you won’t get judged. I just prefer moving boldly over sofa-scrolling.
The two amazing artists who took the lead in the workshop advised me to challenge myself to write a bridge - something I rarely do - and to confront the haters in it “hey I’m the person behind the comments, this is what is does to someone who reads that”, however after thorough consideration, I came to the conclusion that haters don’t actually care if they hurt you, it’s actually kind of their goal. So I kinda reframed it as “you’re underestimating me, thank you cause this fuels me” which in fact it does. Butterflies never would’ve happened if it wasn't for hate. If you think about it, that is the best possible revenge I could have taken. And to make something empowering out of something hurtful is the most amazing confidence boost I could have ever asked for.
It’s kinda funny that before writing this I was stuck, I couldn’t write or produce anymore and Butterflies solved all of that!
In a production workshop I mentioned my writers block, the organiser told me to take a small part and make 5 different instrumentals for it, later I let him hear what I had and said I still didn’t know what to do, he said I had everything I needed to turn it into a full song, and he was right!
